The sun caught his hair and face at an angle and softened his rugged features. My eyes studied him intently in that moment and I knew that I wouldn’t forget it soon.
The sound of the ocean calms me. • In the moments when I’m looking out toward where the water meets the sky, I feel that it’s ok to not have it all figured out because the ocean is too big to feel we can ever conquer it —and so it is about life.
Sometimes, alone, it all seems unbearable... insurmountable even. But when you’re near me, with just a kiss, a touch, a glance, you calm my heart.
Sometimes, I close my eyes and imagine a life where you, my beautiful lover, come home around 6. Dinner is ready or almost and you greet me in the kitchen. I’m happy to see you and you’re happy to see me.
Night one without you, the pain was so raw -- a million short breaths, shallow breathing through a straw.
Slide my chair in front of yours, a coffee table in between. My legs stretched out gently brush the side of your pants.
Loving again doesn’t surprise me, but loving you, as deeply as I do, has.
Tonight, you weren’t fine, and I felt your pain. Tell me. Don’t tell. I’ll just stay in my lane. We keep hurting each other. Our unintentional flow. The truth cuts so deep, and we go blow for blow.
Blink once, what to do? Right swiped for those eyes. Mind open, golden rule, you took me by surprise.
Brick by brick we built these walls around our hearts and then, like ugly buildings in cityscapes, we plaster, paint, then start again.