Happy New Year!

Well, we made it… Happy New Year beautiful peeps!

Crossing into 2019 reminded me of a commercial I used to see for trading in an older car at a car dealership… they would say you can get x amount of money for any old vehicle that you could “push, pull, or tow in.”

I’m pretty sure I was towed into 2019 because I certainly didn’t enter the new year of my own accord.

On New Year’s Eve, I took my children to a kid-friendly party at the behest of a friend of mine and felt lonely as hell without my husband, who’s traveling this week. Besides missing my hubby, I tried like hell to keep my mind off of the one other person I wanted to be sitting next to. 😢

Feeling the loss of a special friendship like this makes me question why I’m putting myself through this dating thing again. I feel like I’m too old to be so emotional.

I know that I’ll be ok. I understand that uncoupling is a painful process no matter your age.

I also know that I’m being tempted everyday to go back though my relationship and question everything that was said and done… was any of it real?

But I won’t torture myself that way (for long). I know that it was real for me and that just has to be enough. And if it wasn’t real for him, then I had one hell of a fantasy while it lasted.

Moving on…

I did some writing for my book yesterday and I plan to do more today. I’m hoping to finish up the next draft by March, which is very doable if I stay focused… and if school would reopen soon and get these kids!!

😁

I hope your 2019 is off to a kick-ass good start!

Despite the setback for me, I’m determined to make it a good year. Just hang in there with me, I promise my posts will get more upbeat in the next few weeks and if they don’t, you have my permission to turn me over your knee.

🤭😲😆

Happy 2019!

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Header image by Pixabay on Pexels.

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Ass pic by me of me. 😊💋

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