Stop! 🛑 Proceed with caution. Pity party up ahead…
My favorite therapist used to say that until we learn the intended life lessons, the tests will keep coming around and showing up. Sometimes we’re tested in the same way or sometimes differently, but the same lessons keep coming until we learn them.
Damnit! Apparently, I have a learning disability when it comes to lessons of the heart.
I was dating a married man. No, not married and poly or open, but married and cheating.
BUT his situation was different and delicate for so many reasons. I won’t bore you with the details, but I convinced myself that his situation was different … because I wanted him.
He was everything I wanted!!
I know because I wrote a checklist a couple of weeks before I met him and he perfectly matched it, well, except for the infidelity bit, but everything else was perfect. It was kismet!
But it was just another test because I didn’t learn from the first time that I dated a married man who broke my heart. So I got the lesson again, but this time with different decor…
Now, on the eve of my 44th, I’m sitting in the same class taking the same damn notes, hoping that this time that shit will stick!
More on this later, when I’m not so angry and disappointed in myself.
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